Final week...

This is my last week in Winston. Fittingly, we have a Southern winter going on down here. I was freezing to death the other night (which for me means high 30s). I was wrapped up under a bunch of blankets with a space heater. Today I walked to and from the gym with only shorts and a tee-shirt on. The high today I believe is 65. That's NC for you!!

It's hard to believe that this is my last week at school. Obviously I still have my thesis to work on next semester but I will be doing that mainly from off campus where I will be living. I feel almost uneasy like there is more I have to do here. I did my final presentation today. No more school work, unless one of my profs changes his mind and decides we do need to take the final!! Keep your fingers crossed on that one. :)

I'm excited but also a little nervous. January is going to be a crazy busy month for me, but the prospect of doing something new and different from academia full time is wonderful!

I'm also so excited that it is the Christmas holiday. I wish we could have a little snow, but oh well. Maybe in a few weeks the temp will drop again. I hope that everyone enjoys his or her break and I'll try to send out my new contact info once I get it.

Happy Holidays!!

To fall...

"You jump into relationships head first. The only problem is that it hurts a lot more when you smash into the cement bottom." -me, to one of my male friends

It's interesting. Not to bore you with relationship antics, but I've noticed something. It seems to me that most people feel that a bad relationship is better than no relationship. It takes a new relationship before the person finally decides to move on out of the old one. This is not a gendered trait either for I have seen both men and women continue to be manipulated, humiliated and emotionally battered by a supposed "loved one."

How much are we willing to take as individuals. When do we finally stop and say, no thank you...I've lived off of happy memories for long enough and now I'm ready to move on and live happiness. We hold on so tight to something that in actuality does not really make us happy anymore. I'm no one special either. I've stayed in relationships long past the expiration date. My pride and personal principles were trampled to death until finally that moment occured when I realized that happy memories were no longer being created.

I feel that it's a long process and during that process you will lose a part of yourself, but in the long run you will gain so much more of yourself for walking away.

On a side note: If you read my blog you might think that all my ramblings mean that my relationship is sour. Things are great for me, but I still am always fascinated by relationships and how they are so different yet very similar. I've had a lot of people ask me if I get all my blog info from my relationship, but really I would say that I rarely draw upon my own relationship. I moreso write about random thoughts that pop in my head through my experiences with others.

Target

I have decided that Target is an evil place where people can escape to from 20 page papers. Not only does Target give you incredibly low prices when they are running a super special, but they manage to know exactly what it is I have been wanting and deliver it at my fingertips. A few weeks ago I thought to myself that I wanted a pair of house shoes (mocassins) with the wool inside. BAAMMM, I go to Target and there they are on sale for 10.99. But wait, there's more! I have been wanting a sport watch so that I can time myself on my runs. All of the sudden while I'm wandering around the electronic section BAAMMM there it is. However, this is not your average sport watch. It is a free sport watch with the purchase of a 10.99 DVD. What DVDs do they have per say? Well, Bridget Jones and the Edge of Reason...one of the very DVDs on my list of likes. Geez, can't a girl catch a break. If you manage to get past the 1.00 section at the front of the store without picking up a little gadget that you probably don't need and will probably fall apart, you should count yourself lucky.

On the bright side I just defended my thesis prospectus successfully today and I got the official offer from the company that I just go a job with. I'm not going to say the company because frankly I don't want the average blogger hopper to know where i work. If you are a friend you'll know how to get in touch with me. :)

One Wish

It doesn't take much to make a woman happy. Just a little extra love and tenderness. Sometimes all we need is a shoulder to cry on, or simply a "what's wrong" and "i'm here for you." At times it's very easy to take advantage of a good woman and not realize what you have right in front of you. To forget that a simple card sent through snail mail or a surprise visit could mean all the world. Don't buy us fancy things all the time, but give us some of your time. Sometimes all we need is to know that if we needed you you would drop everything and make it happen and come see us. We just want to know that in the priorities of your life, we rank towards the top. Don't tell us that the football game is on, or that you have to call back later. Take the time to really cherish your woman, and listen to her. Stop everything, not all the time, but when she needs it. Moving heaven and earth isn't always what we need, but perhaps moving a little closer, the nearness of you is all we need. Men seem to make women out to be so complicated, but in actuality we are really quite simple. Love us. Love us as good as we love you.

This blog is dedicated to all my girlfriends who have been made to feel lessened by a man.